#bleak

If I could grasp your hand I would. If only I can shout to the whole world that you’re mine, I will. This depth of misery makes me hollow. I want to cling what’s left. Are you still there? Am I hoping against hope? The light I seek, you suck my breath now empty. Day and night, night and day wishing one glimpse, one chance, once…

My journey doesn’t end here. I need to turn the page.

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what i like about Charlie

“We accept the love we think we deserve.”

Maybe it’s sad that these are now memories. And maybe it’s not sad.

It's kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and you say your name. And it gets to a point where none of it seems real. Well, sometimes, I can do that, but I don't need an hour in front of a mirror. It just happens very fast, and things start to slip away. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I can't. It doesn't happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me.

Things change. And friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody.  

kaye

when was that last time?

Exactly what i feel right now...garr

I like this song "I Stand Redeemed"

When I think of all my faults and my failures
When I consider all the times I've let God down
I am humbled by the grace He has extended
I'm amazed at the mercy I have found
I could never earn His love on my own
Yet every time I come before His throne

Chorus:
I stand redeemed by the Blood of the Lamb
I stand redeemed before the great I Am
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net ]
When He looks at me, He sees the nail scarred hands
That bought my liberty
I stand redeemed

Even at my best I am unworthy
I have nothing precious I can give
A broken life is all I have to offer
And yet it's a priceless gift to Him
The bitter mark of sin will never fade away
But I can come before Him unashamed

_{theres so many} things in my mind right now. Feelings I wish to control. Emotions needed to unleash. Hearts. Desires. What am I going to do? Where to start? How to end? Knees bleed. Hearts crushed. Spirits wreck. I wish. I hope. Confused?

STOP.

Speak your truth I say but what to say? I don’t know what my truth is either.

Globe bill?!?!

Yesterday I received my bill from globe for the month of May. Got shocked with my bill: +3K? OMG. I can’t even remember calling somebody. Only to find out I was billed for data charges. What? We have internet at home ! I used wifi! Arghs!

Cheeroke Proverb

When I was a child, I once read an Indian Proverb:

I kinda like the words but don’t quite understand what does it mean. I just love the words. Then here I am 2 decades later, remembering the exact wordd and fully understand what it means.