you are what you think

What’s on my mind right now? I asked myself.
...I got so many nonsense thought.
...I know this is madness. There are so many things popping right now without my consent.
... I cannot control my own thoughts. It’s as if i'm always dreaming.

On my mind i created stories, Which i think is bad for me. I cannot remember when i started doing this, but my guess was during my childhood days. when i wanted things to change, When i want my world to be this and that, When i want my dream to be the reality because i don’t want the life that happened to me in the real world….

I don’t know.

Today, the day ended so fast.
Today, I churned.
Today, _________.

I wanted to listen to my mind because I know my heart is deceitful, but my mind is in chaos.
I don’t know , I just have faith.

Coolio Featuring L.V. - Gangsta's Paradise

Tell me why are we, so blind to see
That the ones we hurt, are you and me

Psalm 51

1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is before me. 4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that though mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.

Figured you out

Artist: Nickelback Lyrics

I like your pants around your feet
I like the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favourite damn disease

And I love the places that we go
And I love the people that you know
And I love the way you can't say no
Too many long lines in a row
I love the powder on your nose

Ooooh
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out

I like the freckles on your chest
And I like the way you like me best
And I like the way you're not impressed,
While you put me to the test
I like the wine stains on your dress

And I love the way you pass the check
And I love the good times that you wreck
And I love your lack of self respect
While you're passed out on the deck
I love my hands around your neck

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out

I love your pants around your feet
And I love the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favourite damn disease

And I hate the places that we go
And I hate the people that you know
And I hate the way you can't say no
Too many long lines in a row
I hate the powder on your nose

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out

on a day like today

On a day like this I wouldn’t miss thinking because I have nothing to do that interests me. Not that I don’t have anything to do, in fact I’ve got tons of workloads piling up like my dress on my drawer which by the way is muddled and un-ironed, books left unread, movies unwatched, a-most-supposed to be finished extra job, grades and many more. Gee! But the thing is I’m super bored. My spirit is in chain. I wanna fly! I don’t want this and that, I want this and that and I don’t like this and that but I never, never changed. Guess it must be so hard since I’m a lot older right now. Ha ha!
Well, this is me. There’s chaos inside my thoughts.

naivity

Just a thought:
When i was i a child, i believe on everything and anything. Facts pls...

Sometimes life taught you the hard way and there's nothing you can do but to accept
it or else, you'll never gonna make it.

The way to be happy is contentment of what you have because if you're aiming for
satisfaction you will never be.

I cannot get what i want i can only pray.

Not having enough spirituality and not having life makes you think, Am i living?

You cannot forced somebody to loved you. You can only love.

Frustrations, anger, fear, resentment will blow your mind.

Dogs are howling right now, scary.

Too much caffeine will make your belly bloat (untrue).

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sometimes i wish i have an erasable memory.