Dear Jan,

If you want to enjoy life, heal your toxic shame.

Toxic shame is your dream killer, your joy stealer, and your spirit cancer...

Don’t be afraid, because you won’t be put to shame. Don’t be discouraged, because you won’t be disgraced. You’ll forget the shame you’ve had since you were young… (Isaiah 54:4)

God

Strangers

It's sad when two people became strangers. when Just a little while ago, you shared secrets. You shared dreams. you shared laughter. You both know each others innermost thoughts. And it seems like you can't live without the other half. How do we became strangers? What happened to us? Was it just me?

Jealousy

Sometimes jealousy will eat you alive. It ruins you. We all get jealous. We are jealous of we thought our closed friend only to find out you're not part of their life. We are jealous of people's look, why they seemed to be perfect and we're not. We are jealous of intelligent people and wishes we have their brains...ANd a lot more!

The thing is how do we deal with it? How can we fight our emotions?
 The first step is acceptance.

Don't Quit

What's the point of judging others? will it give you a self satisfaction? does it make you feel superior? cos honestly i don't get this. At times i want to shout at their faces: "Please Re-evaluate yourself and above all else, please judge yourself and not the others". Group of professionals (so they called themselves) talk about their colleagues, cracking below-the-belt jokes, makes them laughing so hard. Watching them makes me sick like i want to evaporate. I think it's not my thing-tearing people down, mocking, scrutinizing. The world doesn't need that Let's spread love and joy!

As one active oldtimer once said: " If you are not committed to something, you are just occupying space." And so, to be able to face the reality of growing older day by day, gracefully and meaningfully, we share the following prayer:

"Lord, you know better than i that I am growing older and someday will be old. Keep me from the fatal habit of thinking I must say something on every subject and on every occasion.

"Release me from craving to straighten out everybody's affairs. Make me thoughtful but not moody; helpful but not bossy. With my vast store of wisdom, it seems a pity not to use it all... but you know Lord, that i want a few friends at the end.

"Keep my mind free from the recital of endless details... give me wings to get to the point. Seal my lips on the aches and pains. They are increasing and the love of rehearsing them is becoming sweeter as the years go by.

"I dare not ask for grace enough to enjoy the tales of others, but help me at least to endure them with patience.

"I dare not ask for improve memory but for a growing humility and a lessening cocksureness when my memory seems to clash with the memories of others. Teach me the glorious lesson that occasionally I may be mistaken.

"Keep me reasonably sweet. I do not want to be a saint-some of them are so hard to live with-but a sour old person is one of the crowning works of the devil.

"Give me the ability to see good things in unexpected places and talent in unexpected people. And give me the grace to tell them so."

--Anonymous

Next time I'll shoot RAW

I never shoot RAW for one reason-it consumes memory. I only have 4GB. The very significant benefits of shooting RAW is you can make adjustments to your shots. RAW is for shooting QUALITY image.