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i realized that i don't usually take a a hard laugh because im afraid of its consequence... because when i poured myself into laughter the next days, surely tears will follow.

it shouldn't be that way. i should embrace laughter. i shouldn;t be afraid of the what if's that i might get in the long run.

i might be brave to look at but at the deepest recesses of my soul, i am full of fear.

maybe but just maybe.

from now on, i will be stronger and much braver.
from now on, i will value what i have and not so hoping on the what i might have.
from now on, i will decide firmly no matter what the outcome is.
from now on, i will grow up.
from now on, i will think harder.
from now on, i will be a better person than before. (u knw what i mean)
from now on, i will take life as it is.

but maybe, just maybe...

give me courage please.

can you judge me?

If a man were judge according to his actions then I am disgraceful to the eyes of God and men. If I were to judge of what my heart’s desire, towards what I feel then I can say I am not. We all live with moral values and conviction. We tend to look at man’s action by not seeing his inner core, we judged according to what we see. Deep down, underneath of it all we are our own judge.

I am in conflict, troubled, averted.

I AM WHAT I AM, saith the Lord.